Available: Love Analgesic and Love Anesthesia?

(When love struck. I wrote this a couple of years ago.)

Vulnerable of nothing but pain, everything in me was exposed to fall apart—without hesitation, I just let it happen. I decided to let it happen—all for love, the only thing that makes me the strongest in my weakness. I have entrusted this vulnerability only to the worthy hands of a commendable soul to whom my forever is destined to be spent with. I trusted like all men can never be trusted except him. I believed as if no man has ever spoken the truth until I heard him talk. I loved so truly more than what love really means.

But love is as rude as how sweet it could be. It will let you fall as low as you can hardly gain up the strength to stand. It will cloud your eyes with too much confusion that you can nearly lose grip of the faint hope you have in finding your right way back. It can strike straight to your heart with unimaginably excruciating pain. And when that happens, it will seem to be all those wonderful memories will tumble down into enormous pieces making it impossible for you to remember or even figure out. All that is left is hurt. Agony will seem to last forever. Misery becomes your air. Trust has blurred its definition. Yes, and it will be even worst as it could ever be.

I have nothing against love or its principle. I have grasped its real essence as it worked tremendously in my life. I know that when I fall, even if it felt like I’m losing strength, I am certain that I am actually gaining it. Even when I am clouded with confusion, rest assured love will never let me wander in the midst of nowhere; it will only let me see things in a different and better perspective. As I love more, I am able to learn of myself deeper.

But I just wonder, in the advancement of technology the world has known a cure for the slightest to the most fatal pain. We have paracetamol or mefenamic acid for toothache or slight headache. Nitroglycerine is available for chest pain. There is morphine sulfate for the crushing pain myocardial infarction causes. Demerol is used for the excruciating pain of pancreatitis. But why is there no pain reliever for those who got there heart broken? Even a crack can cause a person to rate the pain caused by the most-wanted thing on earth, Love, 20 out of 5. Hilarious to those who did not experience but I do not think there is one person who will be extremely lucky not to experience it.

There would also be a point in loving someone wherein all you can wish is to be numb, to not experience the pain even in the beginning. Sometimes it would be better not to know, not to care. You will wish to escape from reality even for 5 minutes. You might think that you can never handle things. Love anesthesia will surely be of great use if ever.

Not everyone has painful diseases that require analgesia nor everyone undergoes surgery that needs anesthesia. But I think everyone experienced and will experience the pain love can cause. Hence, don’t you think that love analgesic and love anesthesia is more useful than lithium, morphine sulfate, lidocaine, demerol and the like? And if this will be sold in the pharmacy, can you imagine how the owner can get richer than Bill Gates in just a day? That would not be impossible considering the fact that all people love.

But with what happened to me, love has been so nice in teaching me eternal lessons. And with that, even if there is love analgesic and love anesthesia sold, I don’t think I’ll purchase one. Yes, it hurts. It does. In fact, so much. But why opt for an analgesic or anesthesia that will only mask the pain? It will not help me figure out what’s wrong. In that case, it will never be cured then. The pain in some magnificent way can be eradicated but the underlying cause can never be identified. And if we really look at things deeply, it has a cure. And it made me so happy that technology did not invent love analgesic and love anesthesia. I am so glad love showed me the cure. That is to love even more.